Tuesday, May 31
yay. My parents are finally back from Shanghai. And boy I am so so glad they are back. Cause i don't have to sweep the floor, wash my clothes and eat mac again. woohoo.. I was so excited waiting outside the arrival hall. The minute I saw my mum, it was like i popped pills or smt. I was franctically waving and hitting the glass panels. And when my mum and dad came out, i immediately rush up to give my mum a hug. I feel blessed again to have my parents by my side.
This one week has taught me a lot. besides being independent, i don't really think I am, I realised how much I cannot do without my parents. I feel like such a spoilt brat.
The holidays are here and its time to..... mug. Though I would love to take a few days off to rest and meet up with friends. This is the best time I can rejuvenate and recharge for the second half of the year.. yay, hail to the holidays!
1:18:00 PM
Friday, May 27
officially, the holidays are starting in another 3 days time. also it indicates that I will have to start mugging every single day in order to do well for mid-year. This year has been such a fast-going period of time that I have totally lost track of time. Time seems to have slipped by and you are busy. And here we are halfway through the year.
It is amazing that at different points in time of your life, you find that time seem to be moving at different pace.I can still remember when I was young, I never complain about having no time to do anything. I would complete my homework on time, have all the fun I could wish for, tag along behind my parents when we go to shopping malls. When I was older, I realise that time has sped up but nevertheless there was still time to catch up with friends and clinging onto my parents' arms when they bring me out. Now that I am at the quarter stage of my life, I realised that it is not so easy managing time and still be able to do all the things you want. very often I will have to prioritise or make sacrifices. Studying has preceded everything else and I am gradually feeling more detached from my friends and family. I would love to spend more time with them and revert to the old relations that we use to share. I want to be able to lug my mum's arm and behave like a small kid like I use to. But all these were lost in the midst of growing up. I guess people only feel nostalgic about the past when they truly reflect. And I think my parents absense this week has made me realise how much they mean to me. Much as I learnt to be independent throughout this week, the urge to give my parents a big hug when they came back gets stronger. I doubt I will ever get a chance to bridge the gap that has been created between each individuals as each of us progress in life. Should there be a chance that we meet anyone we know on the street, don't hesitate to say a simple 'hi'. I'm sure it encapsulates the messages and blessings that you want to say to that someone you meet.
Well, life goes on and you meet new people every now and then. a friendship circle is like a friendster network. there are some individuals in your account that receives more attention and testimonials from you. While other accounts are more humble. When you meet new people, the account piles up and eventually there comes a point when you have to deleted or cast aside some others for the moment as you have not been keeping in touch with them in order for you to continue adding new people. until you meet that person whom you deleted, if you ever do, he remains a castaway and the memory you share with that person fades away. everyone has to make progress. dwelling in the past will only make one regress instead of the opposite. So I guess it will be always ideal to look forward and move on. The past is probably something you can flip through like a photo album when have a good laugh over it.
10:21:00 AM
Saturday, May 21
Everything has a start and an end to it. Although the feeling to realise that I are officially stepping down from band is somewhat unbearable, there is still this strong reluctance that I feel about leaving the band. Also, this marks the time when I can no longer use the excuse of intensive band practices to exempt myself from studying. from now on, it really depends on how I am going to use my time to study. I just want to say that the band and especially her members have been my pillar of support throughout this JC experience. Had it not been for them, I wouldn't have the energy and spirit to carry on till so far. One thing I found true about what Mr Kelvin Tan said (surprisingly), was that we have played so hard for SYF and have acheieved the results we desired, now it is time to focus all our energy on our studies and put in the effort we had for SYF and achieve our desired results.
Meridian Superstar was awesome, the energy level was so high and everyone was purely enjoying themselves. Partly because they could feast their eyes over Benedict Goh's looks. You should have been there to see the girls going gaga over him. And this year was so much grander and better than last year's. The competitors were very tough singers and the judges are well-qualified to critic on their singings. One of the judges, Peter Tan, was the director of Music Clinic, the thing is that he is Stefanie Sun's teacher. Which makes him really awesome. Last night the meridian superstar was crowned but it came as quite a bit of a shock as we didn't expect her to win the competition. But still she sang well, guess you need to be experienced in this industry to know what's good and what's mediocre.
My parents just took a flight to Shanghai for their holiday and I am left at home. Today marks the first day of my one week Home-Alone experience. I hope they have fun over there and rejuvenate themselves from whatever stress they are facing over here. I think they are going to have fun. And I think I should start mugging now. signing out..
10:41:00 AM
Friday, May 13
Another intensive week has come to an end and the weekends are here to help us from the exhausted state that we're in. This week ended with a magnificent band performance in front of the school, which received much great comments and the dinner celebration which ended on a high note. It was total madness and fun. This is when you start to feel so fortunate that you're part of this big family that is so united and live up to the phrase "work hard, play hard". Just that maybe we play much much harder and wilder than we ought to. But really, it is for the fun of it. Besides there are not many instances where you can let loose of yourself and play your hearts out.
There was no reason anyone would miss out the fun after the dinner buffet. Well, I guess the more in tune you are to the band and her members, the more fun you will get. And it is painful and hard to realise, a few days before you are leaving the band, that you are after all not as close to the band as you perceive it to be. Well, maybe cliques within the band but on the whole, it seems to occur to you how insignificant you are. It seems almost ironic that a week before we officially step down from our CCA, the unwillingness to part diminishes and displaced by a sudden urge to free youself from this cursed place. And it is terribly disgusting that one can be feeling this way as it undermines all the efforts that have been used to clinch a medal for the band and the school, all the friendship fostered over this period of time and everything. Sigh, enough of all this pessimism. driving me craZY. This has got to be one of those crazy nights again. Its going to be tough but just have a bear with it. Tomorrow will be a new day...
11:35:00 PM
Thursday, May 5
Meridian Junior College strikes gold medal in its first ever SYF competition. Awesome man, we as the first batch to participate in SYF have written a new page in meridian symphonic band's history and indeed we have lift up to the expectations.
The feeling is beyond words.. First it was the nervous stage we had to overcome before going on stage but immediately after we started playing, the tension was going and we were indulged in our own music. When we had to perform Invictus, the feeling was already there and we could deliver the music with power and force.
After the performance, we felt good about the entire thing but still the feeling of not knowing the results is just disturbing. None of us could eat with ease, nor behave normally. Finally it was time to reveal the results. Moments before Meridian's result was announced, we all could feel our heart beating hard and it was as though it was about to jump out an moment. Then the time came, "Serial No. 4, Meridian Junior College... ... GOLD!".
The entire hall was filled with our screaming and bouncing. The excitement was no longer bearable, we just had to let it out. We lasted for almost a minute more before we quieten down. still, we knew that we had achieved our goal and that our efforts have paid off. Finally, the host had to ask us to cool off so he could carry on with other bands' results.
When we exit the hall, the entire Singapore Conference Hall was just filled with Meridians screaming Gold!!, we did it!! Everyone just hugged anyone they saw and congratulated one another. The amount of joy we experienced was tremendous. Some even cried on the spot. I bet Ms Sia must be very proud of us. And I also realise that this SYF has brought the entire band and Ms Sia together. It seems as though we have become much closer and understanding of each other throughout this period. And I am glad that this is the way it turns out to be.
I just came back from celebration in the airport and feeling so exhausted and sleepy. I shall go and bath and sleep because I can't take it anymore. I think I shall not go to school tomorrow if I cannot wake up. A well deserved break. By the way I took lots of pictures as the final memories I have of this band as the JC 2s will be stepping down very soon. This band has brought me so much joy and happiness, and it has taught me so many things. I will miss it, and the people, and everything about it. The experience has been overwhelming and will always remain in my memories.
10:32:00 PM
