Saturday, October 30
its a saturday afternoon and I just woke up from my sleep.. for the entire week I have been feeling very tired and hungry and I wonder what is the cause of it. Hmm, my ankle is recovering well and I have started playing badminton again and running about as well.
The 1984 video conference went pretty alright. I thought the American students were just brilliant. They are smart and focused during the discussion. Unlike the Singaporean students who went on blabbering about one miserable topic. I could tell the American students were puzzled most of the time what we were saying. Ah well, I guess we need to read up on the text more.
So the results are out. Thank god that most of the trumpeters are promoted or either advanced. But some of them are not intending to stay nevertheless. I am adavanced. Well, it doesn't feel good to be only advanced because it will mean that for the next year's block test I will have to pass all subjects with an a level pass. There goes my holidays in other words. I am feeling so scared. They say block test are designed to get rid of people who are promoted, on probational accord. Well, then again, JC life is such that there will be no life during holidays as well. I really wanna get to the university but first I have to scrape through this period of my life first. This is what it is like in SIngapore. pretty true.. yupz..
shan't go on blogging anymore. Watching meteor garden now. So sad..
1:19:00 PM
Saturday, October 23
It has been a horrible week for all of us actually. I was nursing my fever and sorethroat and had to face the disasterrific results from the promotional exams. Although it seems like everyone is very happy and slacking away in school this week but deep down inside they must be feeling quite sad, I guess.
In the library, you see people mugging their butts out for project work, trying to finish up the remaining work, or that matter, some of them arguing who hasn't done his or her part. It is sad seeing these kind of things happening especially when we are all approaching the ending phase of the adventure. Even so, shouldn't we al least treasure the time, no matter how little that is left for us to mingle with these people. It is responsible for them to continue driving their guts out for project work after receiving their obnoxious results. I will never forget the day that Mr Pang made us to promise each of our group member to stay active in the project despite the result of the promos. I felt very touch and proud of my group members and we are all very responsible and people with integrity. Ii guess, we all want to preserve to the end and see through this possibly final mission of our JC career. If any achievement can count as an contributing to the college and our lives.
Somehow I find it amazing that I can feel undaunted by the release of the results. While everyone is sighing and regretting, I was the only one walking around and taking things lghtly. I am not confident of passing promos, but all that I know is that 'you reap what you sow', and maybe after one year of deceiving yourself, you discover the truth and perhaps JC life is not for you after all. Hmm, I have been wondering whether I took the wrong subject combi but look at it, even if I had taken something else, I doubt the result will differ. I guess I just have to put in lots of hardwork in order to survive in such system. Well, if you wanna stay in the game, you have to accept the rules. There are people out there born smart, if you can't compete with them, you have to realise that it is time you do something about it. This is perhaps the most important lesson I learnt in my short JC life.
But I guess being in the situation, I can't help but feel nervous afterall. I was absent on Tuesday and on that day, the class receieved back all their papers except Literature. I was freaked out when I couldn't contact anyone from my class. And when I did, they said the whole class was badly affected by the promos. Those hardworking ones didn't scrape through some papers. A lot of them were crying and sort. I felt really sad, one, it probably foretells my result as well, two, even if I am lucky, it is sad to part with these nice people after one year.
It was till the next day that I could confirm all my results for promos. When I received all the papers. I am just glad I passed GP and HIstory. But Economics, totaly disappointment. I was expecting something better but it turn out to be a nightmare. When Ms Wong passed me the papers, I could see the look of disappointment, probably disgust in her face. Sigh. I feel that I let her down but at the same time, I keep questioning what went wrong. I guess this is the end of the road for me.
Band, after the release of the results, it was pretty much confirm that more than 1/3 is leaving the band. This is very sad. The people who love music and whom we share a lot of joy with, will no longer be around to share this fun anymore. Take my section, the once biggest section around, comprising of 11 fun and bubbly members has reduced to a mere pathetic 5, provided I make it. If not 4. What is this?? And the Tuba section, defeated. All. What is a band without tubas?? There is no point blaming whether you've studied or not. The point being why must we be ruthlessly separated, sometimes I don't get the JC system, for that matter, the meridian system actually. So much for "we speak with one clear voice, yes this is our choice", I guess when things are not up to expectation, you have no choice but to go the extreme. Thursday's band practice was pretty dead. My section was trying to be funny by sighing every alternate 5 mins, but deep down inside we know that after these few practices, some of the familiar faces may no longer be there anymore. I can't bear to say goodbye. It will be so lifeless without these people in the section. And I dare say the trumpeters are to most bubbly people in the band, what will the band be without us? not idea.
just read Benny's blog. so sad. I quote, "We only learn to treasure people around us when we are about to lose them..." hmm.. can't help it but I feel really helpless in face with the fact that the school authority, Ultimate Lai, it depriving us of our closely knitted but fragile friendship which shatters under the almighty promotional exams. Well, I guess we just have to live with it. Not even sure of my fate, I have not planned anything ahead yet. What's gonna happen to me? well, take a step at a time like I always say.
1:38:00 PM
Tuesday, October 19
the fever subsided but came back yesterday.. 38.5 degrees. My head felt as it it was going to catch fire and as if the whole body was combusting. Gosh. And the sorethroat refuses to heal. So no choice and my Dad had to bring me to the doctor again.. The doctor said the virus is strong and prescribed a stronger medicine for me and gave me an MC for today. But I have quite a lot of lessons today and project work. Bad time to fall sick I guess.
Project work is doing pretty fine but a bit slow I thought. I was just paranoid yesterday, maybe because of the fever. I thought one of my group member was angry with me because since we came back from the holidays after promos, her body language seems to be telling me that she is furious with me. I think she is just feelnig stressed out. nevermind her. I clarified with someone else and made me feel better. Just woke up from my afternoon nap. Cool. Hmm, I wonder what papers the class got back today and what else I missed today. I will have to finish up the Oral Presentation for project work later. Tired man. Hmm, just a few more weeks and I will be free of Project work.
Got back our Chinese paper yesterday, it was pretty well-done I thought.. Yupz managed to score overall A, but not sure if after averaging the whole year's rersult I can still get an A. Hopefully I can get that A otherwise I am going to be so depressed. maybe I am expecting too much from myself about Chinese. But come to think about it, it is probably the only subject which I can possibly score well in. so.. yar..
keep my fingers cross for the rest of the subjects. Pray hard..
smiling mtrlc.
3:33:00 PM
Saturday, October 16
following a leg injury, there came a flu and fever. Oh man. I think it is cumulative and all the illness will come to you at one shot just like my case. Two days ago, my temperature measured 37.8 degrees. I was like, "what the hell?" But nevermind, I went to school yesterday for the open house.
I though openhouse was rather boring and sad. Not many turned up as they went to NYJC and TJC first before dropping by MJC for a peek. I guess it can't be compared to last year when it was so much more happening. Well, the band performance was mediocre the first round but amazingly, it got better the second time. Mr. Weirdo Wong (aka. Why uh?) asked whether we had drugs or something. The roving performance was alright. A lot of people surrounded us probably because they cannnot find anything else to watch. These days i realise my trumpet skills have deterioated like roller coaster and to think that I was going to enquire about joining other CCA. I was watching all the dance performance and was absolutely blown away by them. They are professional and just fabulous.
So when it was the end of it, i heaved a sigh of relief that it is finally over. my fever was getting back to me again after the panadol wore off. I had a terribl sorethroat after eating the curry puff Ms Sia bought for the band, could be some inflammation or something. It felt so dry I couldn't even talk properly. So my parent took me to a doctor and got some medicine. After I got home it was about 9.00pm but I still managed to catch the result of Singapore Idol. I turned on the TV and saw Leandra and Jerry. I gasped. If Leandra was to be eliminated, there will be a commotion. I mean Jerry and Leandra. The choice is obvious. When Gurmit announced that Leandra is safe, I felt this sense of assurance that Jerry is gone, forever. But it was kinda sad when they recapped his days in SIngapore Idol. I guessed he was under a lot of pressure and maybe he is oblivious to them. I respect his enthusiasm in the game but we cannot sacrifice talent for his own style of singing. Well, I guess Singaporeans ought to be blamed for his plight. haha maybe plight is too heavy a word to use.
Gosh, I can't get the school song out of my mind. "Born of a vission to be the best..." haha.. it is a nice song, awkward ending, like the original version rather than this one.
Rotting like hell now. Will someone ask me out?? damn..
1:53:00 PM
Tuesday, October 12
ouch.. my first sprain in my entire life..
materialchild
11:18:00 PM
hee.. sorrie abt the repeated pictures.. can't take it down anyway.. here's a picture of my leg.. nothing much, just a sprain.. the sinseh said I fractured the bones and there was a slight crack in the bones but thankfully I didn't tear the ligament or else I probably have to go for an operation in the hospital.
Today my ankle was a little swollena and I couldn't walk properly by then. Mum suggested bringing me to some recommended sinseh so I went. It was so isolated shop in Ang Mo Kio, very small shop. When we got there I was limping towards around while she went to look for the shop. When we got into the shop, the chinese medicine filled the whole air and I was trying to hide my nervous feeling. I should be damn pain when he starts meddling with me ankle. Indeed, it was. I tried hard not to scream but the pain was just unbearable. gosh, he was rubbing the sprained area and pulling my toes as if he was going to break them. And I could actually hear the cracking of my joints. I wasn't really screaming though, just held on really tight to the side of the bed. I felt like I was making some weird sound, I sounded like I was having sex. Haha.. But now I am feeling better, still limpping a little but the sinseh said it will take about 2 weeks or so to heal. I will need to return for another session on thursday. oh gosh.. somebody help me.
Just came back from compasspoint after dinner at Pizza Hut. the sales season is on now, and ocean pacific is having its sale i guess. I saw the shirt that Joel longed for but cost $43 and now it is like only $19. Freaking shit. And the pants which usually cost $43 also $19, gosh I need to buy. didn't bring money. Aiya, I didn't dare to get from my Dad as he might scold me. But come to think about it, on account of my injuries. whatever. Anyway I told Joel about it and we will probably drop by compasspoint after band tomorrow. Yeah. oh damn it.. my flu is coming back again.. runny nose and crippled leg. Gosh, I wanna recover soon!!
I wonder how I am going to move around in school tomorrow. No PE for me then what am I going to do. hmm.. first time I am looking forward to PE cause post-promos activities will be so fun. My Dad will be bringing me to school so I guess I don't have to walk allt he way to hougang green to meet Jeremy. Sigh, gonna sleep now. HOpefully my ankle recovers asap, I so wanna play badminton.
smile, mtrlc..
11:17:00 PM
smilez..
materialchild
11:12:00 PM
Deren's Birthday
materialchild
11:11:00 PM
handphoneszz..
materialchild
11:06:00 PM
Monday, October 11
this week end was just amazing.. I spent money like nobody's business.. actually just spent a lot.. not that much though.. whatever.. first of all I went to watch resident evil with wei lung and aloysius and I was just so frightened by the loud blast of the cinema, I guess it was for the effect of the movie.. but nevertheless it was a nice movie and i do recommend it as a pretty cool action film.
my metro colleagues and I decided to go to K-box, again for some gathering.. We met and had lunch before proceeding to the K-box at cineleisure only to find that we might as well enter at 2pm since that is a different package. So we sang and rui rong went out to buy a cake for Deren. She told us that it was his birthday the previous day, darn, i was with him yesterday and I didn't know.. i felt kinda guilty. But anyway we celebrated for him and continued singing. It was till about 7pm that Alex had to leave as he had to go back to be a slave to the nation. poor thing.
and today, I skipped band as I woke up with a flu (really!!), runny nose.. it was in the afternoon that I felt a bit better and I went out to catch a movie, WImbledon. I didn't know what it was about at first but after the show, I can only say that it is something worth watching.. Kirsten Dust is amazing, I like her acting and i truly enjoyed the show. So when I got home at 6 plus, I went to play badminton with Deren. There were a whole lot of people there waiting to play. I was just shocked but as time goes, there were only 4 left. I was trying hard to keep up with the flying shuttlecock and before i knew it, I was on the ground, a sprained ankle. It wasn't that pain and I was hopping my way home after that. And now, I am suffering the aftermath of that sprain and am suffering in pain. GOshh.. someone help me.. and I have to report for band performance tomorrow because of some openhouse ensemble performance.. gosh the pain is killing me now.. and my mum is suggesting that I get some sinseh to have a look at my leg and twist it around.. can't imagine.. it is gonna be pretty painful i guess but what to do, I wanna play badminton asap and return to school walking properly.
Gosh... ouch.. watching American's Next Top MOdel now, trying to forget the pain.. boohoo..
mtrlc, heehee..
10:21:00 PM
Wednesday, October 6
finally i found the energy and time to blog a small little entry. Well, the promos is approaching an end soon and so is my energy level. every paper seems to be draining out what is left of me and the twitching pain on my thumb, it gets aggravated everytime there is 3 papers in a day or a 3 hour paper for that matter. not surprisingly, thursday will be another torture session. 2 hours of econs paper and 3 hours literature. I must tell myself that not all the papers we took are full blown A level standard, imagine the actual one. shudders.
I guess I went in and did my best so there was no surprise nor regret. maybe not starting revision earlier was the primary cause of it. everyone is mugging their butts out and stuffing everything into their brain as much as possible and this is frightening the shit out of me. Even I have to resort to doing that. aw, my brain.
Went to swesen with Joel and Sarah yesterday for a mini celebration that promos is coming to an end. We do not have a paper today so it calls for some break i guess. I ate so much just as Joel did. Crayfish pasta and ice cream, Ring-a-ding-a-ling, i think that is what it is called. not too bad but I was too full to put it down my throat. just as we were about to leave, guess who came in, Vicki Zhao and WML, my god. I didn't know till I saw those shades and o-biang gawdy pants. Immediately the three of us froze in our conversation and started laughing uncontrollably. Oh man. Let's not be too mean here.
gotta go now.. study. sigh.. remember to preview on 10 Oct. New layout, new start...
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